Life is so busy. Everytime I turn around something is happening - albeit something good - something enlightening - something groovy - but SOMETHING is always happening. Work is so incredibly busy. I am a case manager for food stamp, Medicaid and temporary cash assistance clients. With the fall of our economy, my job and my duties have tripled! Now mind you - I am a lowly paid state employee (the benefits do however ROCK). Yet, I love what I do. It's challenging and each day is always different. I'm always guaranteed a major brain workout and usually end up feeling rewarded. There are days that the system fails and rewards those who probably should not be rewarded. However, there are days when I have to really use my investigative skills and teach a client that the system does sometimes work! That's usually where the fun comes in.
Big sigh...
Life is good. It's good to love your job. It's also good to know that in five more months I will start telecommuting to work! Now that is a reward. An awesome reward.
I've changed my life. Actually, I think since I've turned 40 - the chemical makeup of my brain has changed. I'm happy. I'm content with who I am and what I have to do to remain an all around great person. I don't know what caused this change to occur - but 40 seems to have done it. I woke up one day and thought to myself - you have the power to do whatever you want to do. There is nothing stopping you. It's all about me and it's all up to me. Only I make my choices. No one else. I think God finally got through to me and embedded it in my head that no one else is going to make me happy. Only ME will make me happy. Since then I've dropped 11 pounds, had a friend join me in the best change of our life -- new eating habits, I've joined Curves and haven't missed but one day (I was sick I swear) and I actually love CURVES. I go in before work, it's right next door, I exercise and chill for a minute, clean up, dress and put on my makeup and walk to work from there. I get to measure how many inches I've lost in two weeks. But, finally I've realized - it doesn't matter how many inches or how many pounds - it's all about just being healthy and doing the right thing to remain that way. I feel so much better (low carb rocks). My energy level has increased tenfold.
In a nutshell, being 4o kicks butt. I wish I could have skipped all those years and just jumped to the here and now. I am a woman. Hear me roar!
1 comment:
OH MY GOODNESS!!! I Love this new you!!! You are so beautiful, always have been, inside and out! I am so happy to see that your outer beauty caught up with your inner beauty! You sound fabulous; i am so proud of you. My Dad taught me that God will pour into your cup and it is is up to you whether or not you think He has filled up your cup half full or half empty. It is all how you look at it. You got it figured out, sistah!
You have a lot of my bloggin to catch up on. I thought you would have been reading on my blog about Pops...but you have been sleeping too long/ or too busy working to be reading my blog. So glad your back. I've missed you!!!
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